While you're making life choices for yourself, remember that being a criminal as seen on TV is "cool," they keep building more and more prison cells, and in school they teach us slavery was abolished. The 13th amendment actually reads that slavery can only be punishment for a crime in the US. So, being a criminal is a "cool" career choice to a lot of young people who get the "privilege" to work for 23 cents an hour in prison if they get work detail. Welcome to America.
Religions are a cybernetic family tree of human beings trying to find reasons to treat each other well and answers to where we come from, where we are, and where we go. It's so hard to treat each other well sometimes. If humanity dies in a final senseless battle, Fyodorov's heaven dies with us.
Just imagine what kinds of telecommunications technologies will contribute to mental illness in 100 years.
Since I first made this blog, I've been going through a long period of change. Giving up the weed and beer was only the start of it all. The world of pain I always ran from to getting high was still there, as complicated as ever, made worse by the fact I was stoned for so long. It's hard to navigate the interpersonal bullshit. I sometimes start to sink into feeling like I was better off smoking weed and keeping to myself on purpose, but I really wasn't. The world is just complicated. So many people have slowed down to turn around and help me out with my weird problems, I don't want to turn around and be a jerk. I really want to keep doing what I'm doing these days, better and better.
I'm mostly in charge of myself and two cats, and we're all doing well here. Recently my friend said, "you can't really blame those guys who kill a bunch of people and then themselves because people suck so much," and I agreed with him. He was just playing devil's advocate and said, "no, it is their fault." He was completely correct. Those are pretty much the people who suck the most. I sometimes felt like I was somehow better because I would pretty much only kill myself. That would be my choice, though. Accountability is a good topic. When should I be held accountable, and for what? When should I hold other people accountable?
Finally, a happy blog post
It's been almost two and a half years since I've had a drink or smoked weed. Life has slowly been getting better and better. Some days have sucked, I'm not going to lie to you. People really gather around to punish people for being different. That's why I always ran to drugs, and I don't anymore. Those people are still there. This world is a cruel circus that I already left on purpose. Now I'm back, and I'm the main attraction. Since you all seem to think I asked you here, I'm going to tell you losers my story. Actually, no I'm not. I'm just going to blog.
My life is amazing today. I'm clearly starting a doodling business online, and I'm getting all my ducks in a row. There are still people on a "that guy sucks" bandwagon, and it's slowly become a worse and worse strategic disadvantage for this.
I found out I absorb people's traumas in weird ways. I love myself so much right now. I didn't get what was all going on. I love myself enough now to quit a job at a hostile workplace. There's no need to eat anyone for their cannibalistic traits in Corporate America. That would make me just as bad right? I'm starting to understand where people are coming from. Everyone slowed down to help me out with my weird problems, I'm going to do my best to show the same compassion to others. If you kill yourself that's totally on you, sorry. I can try to be kind if you want a loose facsimile of a friend.
I honestly still dislike this world though. The loser wins again. Death to the opponent. Oops that's me doing it then. I'm starting to get the hang of this. Go enjoy your life somewhere else ♥
When people want to talk to me about technology, their primary interest is crime. Is it the same in every sector now? Half the media is about crime. It promotes crime as our culture. It has gotten extremely hard for average people to make an honest living which they can actually live on. "But I work for <Company Inc.>! You fool!" No. You are a criminal. "But I'm a <political party affiliation as leader>!" Yeah. Obviously.
Trump and Biden 2024. Working together on the actual problems is the only way to save America. Our economy cannot thrive by selling our emails back and forth to each other for filtered spam we can't even eat. The time has truly come to eat the rich if they cannot avoid continuing to fail us. I'm big on accountability. I'm in charge of myself and two cats. The cats vouch for me. I do not vouch for you.
If all of our shitposts were as thoughtful as QAnon, we wouldn't have these problems.
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If you get food stamps, you are basically a fed, and you should start acting like it. Not like some kid acting out like he's crazy.
The worst drugs I ever did were the wrong pharmaceuticals prescribed by the wrong doctors, from the age of 13. At this point I feel that I do need the medication I'm on. It hasn't even been on the market for long. I may or may not have needed it all along, there is absolutely no way to know. I feel that it's helpful to point this out, it's absolutely true, and it's an act of kindness to tell my story to others who might follow in my footsteps.
Respect your mom. No one is perfect. If I were the father of a kid a doctor wanted to medicate, I would tell the doctor to be absolutely sure the medication was correct and would not worsen the condition, or I would feed the doctor their own body parts even if it meant prison time.